TRYING TO CLEAR THE CLUTTER

Going into the weekend not sure where my feelings lie...have i managed to clear the clutter? Every time I think I have...it finds its way back again. It is so frustrating and depressing. I don't know myself any more. I always had such clarity, now all I do is run round in circles like a headless chicken!!!! I am trying to understand the genesis of my dilemma. Its mighty convoluted though. Perhaps some things are not meant to be understood...just accepted.